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Oh and by the way, I looked at your lips today. I think they were sexy.

I was looking for pimples/scars from healed pimples on your face too. I couldn't find any. I wonder why you could have such good complexion.

I used to think that I was in love whenever I saw you. But now you are the one who is constantly reminding me that I am single and very independent.

I was able to focus well in my work now, even when you are just an inch away from me.

Maybe I have taken it for granted or maybe I am aware enough the fact that you are just but my another ward mate and we might just be only-friends after all. I am not sad but maybe this has just proven that it is not time yet. Some people said that we will only be able to fall in love when we understand about ourselves better. I guess this might be right. Sometimes I don't know who I am. Maybe I should learn to be a more confident me. I'm still in search of myself.

But then on the other hand, I still enjoying being aware of your presence because I like your smile and it still makes my every-day.

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