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I think I have just failed too badly.

I think my pleasures are going to be over too soon.

I think I have been dreaming too well.

I think I'm just going back to my ownself.

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I was smiling at you, saying Hello to you by heart.

And then I was sitting behind you, thinking of how wonderful this day would be.

I was then sitting next to you.

I tried to talk to you. I tapped on your shoulder, now couldn't really recall what I told you.

I thought I was too aware of your presence.

I talked to you for a while and then you did too. 

But my heart remained calm until when I stopped talking and got back my senses, I started having butterflies in my stomach.

I was happy thinking of you even though I had indigestion almost everyday.

I thought things would go on and proceed further.

But today I think I had been wrong.

I was too obsessed over my feelings, so overwhelmed that I could not see reality anymore.

I thought I was just making up stories. 

You were after all just another passer-by. 

But I guess I had been happy and thankful for that.

But deep down I thought of how many rainbows that I could still draw and how many dances I could have over the clouds. I wish so badly that my stories could go on and that they would never stop, not so soon at least.

I thought, maybe, we still could be friends.

Let's be friends, maybe?
you lost little shepherd.