Daily report
I put down my phone.
Homesickness strikes.
My eyes turn red and tears start to flow down on my cheeks.
This is perhaps the first occasion ever since I moved here? It's just been the third night but I already feel like it's been half a life time.
Maybe I'm slightly anxious about life in the hospital for the coming years. Maybe I know too well that I have to quickly regain my confidence level before it's too late. There are many things that I will accomplish soon, which is one thing for sure, that is making me feeling better.
What the hell is CFCS? And what is a long case? and Exit Viva? A research project that needs to get approval in Bukit Jalil campus by beginning of April? I have no idea how these things got to be done. I need to pay lots of attention to my portfolio as well. A senior's portfolio that I saw was almost 6 inches thick, but mine at the moment less than a centimetre thick.
I did nothing much today but spent most of the time sitting at the table, in front is my Delly, and I'm always working out something in it. I spend some time thinking as well. Thinking of my life during the entire junior clerkship in the hospital.
I look at my housemate who is already an MO in STJH and wonder how many times of shower she'd normally take in a day. But I always see her going into the room and coming out in a different clothes withing just a few minutes. And I think eventually I will so get used to the weather that I will just shower once or twice a day, since I will always feel sticky. And I hope this stickiness of my skin will become part of me, so that it will not bother me too much.
Crappie. Tomorrow will be a super long day. I will survive well =)
Homesickness strikes.
My eyes turn red and tears start to flow down on my cheeks.
This is perhaps the first occasion ever since I moved here? It's just been the third night but I already feel like it's been half a life time.
Maybe I'm slightly anxious about life in the hospital for the coming years. Maybe I know too well that I have to quickly regain my confidence level before it's too late. There are many things that I will accomplish soon, which is one thing for sure, that is making me feeling better.
What the hell is CFCS? And what is a long case? and Exit Viva? A research project that needs to get approval in Bukit Jalil campus by beginning of April? I have no idea how these things got to be done. I need to pay lots of attention to my portfolio as well. A senior's portfolio that I saw was almost 6 inches thick, but mine at the moment less than a centimetre thick.
I did nothing much today but spent most of the time sitting at the table, in front is my Delly, and I'm always working out something in it. I spend some time thinking as well. Thinking of my life during the entire junior clerkship in the hospital.
I look at my housemate who is already an MO in STJH and wonder how many times of shower she'd normally take in a day. But I always see her going into the room and coming out in a different clothes withing just a few minutes. And I think eventually I will so get used to the weather that I will just shower once or twice a day, since I will always feel sticky. And I hope this stickiness of my skin will become part of me, so that it will not bother me too much.
Crappie. Tomorrow will be a super long day. I will survive well =)
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