Can you befriend me?
I fell sick today. I think I couldn't even walk to the bathroom properly because when I woke up my room was in chaos. But I guess I had a nice dream although my headache was almost killing me.
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When I thought we couldn't be friends, and then I just lost some hope on you, you lit up hope to me again.
Because you said Goodbye to me today, for the very first time.
In the wards today I was talking to you sometimes, and I realized I did not have butterflies in my guts anymore. I guess I have learned to overcome the ridiculous anxiety that would arise seeing you.
In the afternoon in the conference room I started to feel weak and sick. I thought you would never be noticing me anymore so I did what I should, trying to show as little awareness of your presence as possible. But I realized we would always leave a session almost together. But then I would always be after you. And when I thought you could have left school already, I would see you still outside the class. I thought maybe you were packing your stuff.
Today when I was about to leave with my friends, I was walking behind you and your friends. I wondered if you walked very slowly so that I could catch up and see you again. But I don't know. I think most probably I was thinking too much and that what I imagined is not true. You turned and smile. My heart never raced anymore. But I felt an overwhelming excitedness filling my blood.
And when I got home even though I became worse and felt so nauseous because of having fever, I still had a smile on my face, together with my body we fought and now I became much better.
I hope that we become friends. And that I would talk to you more and maybe you would talk to me more too.
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When I thought we couldn't be friends, and then I just lost some hope on you, you lit up hope to me again.
Because you said Goodbye to me today, for the very first time.
In the wards today I was talking to you sometimes, and I realized I did not have butterflies in my guts anymore. I guess I have learned to overcome the ridiculous anxiety that would arise seeing you.
In the afternoon in the conference room I started to feel weak and sick. I thought you would never be noticing me anymore so I did what I should, trying to show as little awareness of your presence as possible. But I realized we would always leave a session almost together. But then I would always be after you. And when I thought you could have left school already, I would see you still outside the class. I thought maybe you were packing your stuff.
Today when I was about to leave with my friends, I was walking behind you and your friends. I wondered if you walked very slowly so that I could catch up and see you again. But I don't know. I think most probably I was thinking too much and that what I imagined is not true. You turned and smile. My heart never raced anymore. But I felt an overwhelming excitedness filling my blood.
And when I got home even though I became worse and felt so nauseous because of having fever, I still had a smile on my face, together with my body we fought and now I became much better.
I hope that we become friends. And that I would talk to you more and maybe you would talk to me more too.
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