the cycle of suffering
If you ask me what I need the most now, I would say I would want to have a hug from you.
I always tend to get butterflies in my stomach whenever I am alone, either in the library or at home. And after a while I'll feel like going to the loo. The cycle repeats. It sounds so much like an inflammatory bowel syndrome. It's been like this for quite some time now. I tend to become nervous when I'm alone. But these symptoms disappear when someone is around. Anyone will do, actually.
I feel like hugging you so much now.
I can't recall when I last went home. I forgot the smell of my room. I forgot how fluffiness could soothe me in bed. 3 more weeks to go. And then I'll either have to go through the whole thing again, or, I move on to a higher level of suffering.
I used to hear this from my mother, that human beings are born to suffer. Everyday, we learn how to relieve sufferings, which ultimately becomes the aim of our goals in life. I am suffering. And every morning, I go to the wards and I see how my patients suffer too. I suffer even more. I go home and then I look at how much I need to read and how much deficit I've got, then I continue to suffer.
I always tend to get butterflies in my stomach whenever I am alone, either in the library or at home. And after a while I'll feel like going to the loo. The cycle repeats. It sounds so much like an inflammatory bowel syndrome. It's been like this for quite some time now. I tend to become nervous when I'm alone. But these symptoms disappear when someone is around. Anyone will do, actually.
I feel like hugging you so much now.
I can't recall when I last went home. I forgot the smell of my room. I forgot how fluffiness could soothe me in bed. 3 more weeks to go. And then I'll either have to go through the whole thing again, or, I move on to a higher level of suffering.
I used to hear this from my mother, that human beings are born to suffer. Everyday, we learn how to relieve sufferings, which ultimately becomes the aim of our goals in life. I am suffering. And every morning, I go to the wards and I see how my patients suffer too. I suffer even more. I go home and then I look at how much I need to read and how much deficit I've got, then I continue to suffer.
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