Regards,
Today marks the Day 4 of my Semester 10. Time is always faster than I could catch up with. Although Sem 9 had passed for some time now, sometimes I still thought that passing Semester 9 was tougher than I imagined. I had passed it now, an exam said by many to be the toughest of the entire medical course. Yet, I still sometimes feel that I expected myself to be more competent.
As I have always thought, getting rid of this horrible feeling is my ultimate goal and it will have to persist even during my HO-ship and MO-ship. Because the feeling of incompetency could be a warning sign especially when I'm well aware that there are mandatory things-to-know that I have yet to master even at this point in time. 'It could be a disaster; i could cause one,' a thought that always alarms me from time to time.
Sem 10 in Kluang started in a pretty pleasant way. I had never expected it to be relaxing; I was imagining myself to be running blood tests and always rushing for deadlines. Well maybe these have yet to begin. Though, the lecturers and doctors, staff nurses, matrons and sisters are way too friendly that I could have imagined. I am grateful for this of course. It eases my work here.
Only 5 months left.
I reminded myself. Although rather unbelievable, I am going to graduate as an MBBS doctor in 5 months time. In other words, this is going to be my final medical posting before I turn out as a qualified doctor who would be treating patients. Not what I am doing now; seeing how patients are treated or imagining how I would treat them in my mind.
Because of this fact, there are things/skills that I must make sure I master before I graduate. When I turn out as an MBBS doctor, I wouldn't have a lot of chance to learn as much as I want as this phase. Staff nurses and sisters would not teach me as willingly as they do now perhaps because they probably would expect me to have mastered them by then.
So I want to work harder. And I don't want to miss a chance to learn. I go to the wards and spend more time in the ward, looking for learning opportunities. I do many things. I offer to help.
In the past few days I have picked up some useful skills that I have ignored in many ways in the past.
First, I must say I am grateful to have met Sr. Koh. She is the person who taught me the power of communication/words. Her humility and cheerfulness make me salute to her, as a retired matron/sister who is still so committed in the teaching field. I have learnt from her to be nice to everyone around me; be them the staff nurses, HO, MO, specialists, matrons, student nurses, MAs...Simple gestures make great differences. You earn lots of respects that become helpful one day. And I want that to happen around me. So I start to greet people in the wards. I say hello and thank you more often. I acknowledge people's presence. And I have seen magic starting to work.
Today is the first day I have taken the most number of bloods. Under the guidance of Sr. Koh, I slowly became more confident in venipuncture. As shameless as it could sound, I never had the courage to take blood. I am traumatized by the failures that I have gone through, leaving trauma to my patients who got poked so many times before blood could be taken. And because of that I had become very withdrawn when it comes to needle and procedures. Now I am changing. I will develop these skills in the coming few months' time. In the next few months, I will be confident in doing venipuncture in most of the patients.
That's all for today.
Every day is a learning opportunity.
Don't waste a single second.
Regards,
Love
As I have always thought, getting rid of this horrible feeling is my ultimate goal and it will have to persist even during my HO-ship and MO-ship. Because the feeling of incompetency could be a warning sign especially when I'm well aware that there are mandatory things-to-know that I have yet to master even at this point in time. 'It could be a disaster; i could cause one,' a thought that always alarms me from time to time.
Sem 10 in Kluang started in a pretty pleasant way. I had never expected it to be relaxing; I was imagining myself to be running blood tests and always rushing for deadlines. Well maybe these have yet to begin. Though, the lecturers and doctors, staff nurses, matrons and sisters are way too friendly that I could have imagined. I am grateful for this of course. It eases my work here.
Only 5 months left.
I reminded myself. Although rather unbelievable, I am going to graduate as an MBBS doctor in 5 months time. In other words, this is going to be my final medical posting before I turn out as a qualified doctor who would be treating patients. Not what I am doing now; seeing how patients are treated or imagining how I would treat them in my mind.
Because of this fact, there are things/skills that I must make sure I master before I graduate. When I turn out as an MBBS doctor, I wouldn't have a lot of chance to learn as much as I want as this phase. Staff nurses and sisters would not teach me as willingly as they do now perhaps because they probably would expect me to have mastered them by then.
So I want to work harder. And I don't want to miss a chance to learn. I go to the wards and spend more time in the ward, looking for learning opportunities. I do many things. I offer to help.
In the past few days I have picked up some useful skills that I have ignored in many ways in the past.
First, I must say I am grateful to have met Sr. Koh. She is the person who taught me the power of communication/words. Her humility and cheerfulness make me salute to her, as a retired matron/sister who is still so committed in the teaching field. I have learnt from her to be nice to everyone around me; be them the staff nurses, HO, MO, specialists, matrons, student nurses, MAs...Simple gestures make great differences. You earn lots of respects that become helpful one day. And I want that to happen around me. So I start to greet people in the wards. I say hello and thank you more often. I acknowledge people's presence. And I have seen magic starting to work.
Today is the first day I have taken the most number of bloods. Under the guidance of Sr. Koh, I slowly became more confident in venipuncture. As shameless as it could sound, I never had the courage to take blood. I am traumatized by the failures that I have gone through, leaving trauma to my patients who got poked so many times before blood could be taken. And because of that I had become very withdrawn when it comes to needle and procedures. Now I am changing. I will develop these skills in the coming few months' time. In the next few months, I will be confident in doing venipuncture in most of the patients.
That's all for today.
Every day is a learning opportunity.
Don't waste a single second.
Regards,
Love
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