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Should I blog or should I start studying again?

Two weeks of study leave is going to an end in another 24 hours. I could no longer feel for any anxiety, nervousness or excitement. 

But one question has always been flashing in my mind. Have I done enough for myself?

Frankly speaking, I have no idea.

I recalled the two weeks that have just passed and all I could remember is that I could hardly sleep well every night. And I spend the midnights watching series and movies. But if I asked myself whether I should have spent the time studying rather than entertainment and if time would go back, I don't think I would change a thing. I would say, I think I have done the best of what I could have done. Because that is just what  I did.

Tomorrow I'm going back to the land of dreams but also of independence, sometimes, sorrow and tranquillity as well. I have to continue working hard and smart because in my life so far, one big dream that has kept me moving is the vision/plan/obligation/goal of becoming a good and professional doctor.\

The big  bang exam is on Monday. Yes, next Monday! Although I could no longer feel the horror of it that has once stricken me day and night, I would still pray that I would do my best.

I have to pass the exam.

I must.

Because if I do not, I would not proceed to the third semester. There is no second chance. I really pray hard that everything turns out well and works the way I wished.

PS: Please make everything end fast and nice.

For the coming semesters if things turn out well, I would and I must and I am going to work hard and work smart and always be the best of myself. I would transform into a better individual as a commendable medical student because I always have a big dream of becoming a great doctor. Please. I am working hard now. And I will work even harder, for myself and the future of the people. 

God bless me =) =) =)